FreeThinking...

aiyz..issit me or issit life...
why issit, when i am suppose to be doing things i like, just have unecessary disturbance/stress from within and without..
why issit, when pple are nice to me, i will take a step back, and when pple are not helpful at all..i will feel irritated..
why issit, that pride only mean unecessary expectations and stress..
why issit, that hols doesnt feel like hols in secondary sch days anymore...

something about myself...
i think i am better off as a follower than a leader...
jun sucks at making decisions, i am good at it...
but there is only one type of decision that i am good at making..
"it's always easier to do everything myself than to bother to ask pple to do..."

Random stuff...
why is jh still leveling faster than me when he is 30+ lvl higher than me..-.-''
why did i agree to be the pd last october...
why cant i let got of all the expectations and more expectations in my life...
why...when i feel very strongly about something...that feeling is no longer reliable now...
why am i writing all these crap..

Am i too bored having no work to do this hols? not at all...in fact i rather job agencies dun call me up now...every wed and sat is enuff work and worries for me already...

mayb no one is expecting anything from me...

i think it's just myself....

cant wait to find someone better to take over me...

or rather, to quote from L "no matter how good you are, one person alone cannot change the world.." and i am not even close to trying to change the world...

if i see a shooting star now, there is just one wish in my mind...

"hope i dont be the one to end the 11 yrs for nvac volunteering at imh..."

lolxX..

zero motivation...100% mental fatique...