life in a pixel..

If you ever zoom into any photos to like 1500%...you might get the same feeling as i do...

It's kinda amazing, how all the little pixels (thousands of them..) are of so many difference shades, tones and colours...while when u zoom out, it just seem like one single color making up part of the face..

In life..every small little thing counts, just like every single of those pixels, giving life and texture to the painting/photo..

Life as such is simply beautiful..

:)

Artistic feel..

Whoa...cant imagine i am listening to classical music and painting at 1260% zoom, using 1 pixel paintbrush on photoshop!

And i am enjoying it!

Feel so artistic..hahaha..suddenly can relate to those hardcore (but poor) artist on TV..that always get scrutinise for not leading a normal life with a stable job. Geez..i guess you can really forget about everything else when u are engross in doing something you like.

Going back to continue my BIG PROJECT! :)

happy as can be..

be satisfied with whatever you have...
be grateful to have friends around...
be glad to have freedom otherwise...
be positive in any situation...
be enjoying doing anything...
be thanking just being alive...

what else do you need to be happy about?

it's all in the mind...

there can be a thousand reasons to be sad, worried, angry, bored, depress etc..

but you dont really need a reason to be happy..

smile~ you can make your own day, and maybe others too!

my new motto:

"Enjoy every moment in life and be as happy as can be :) "

Agrr...

It's been quite a while since i ever been so "angry" man...looking at the tutorial questions and thinking...what the hell! Did the lecturer even teach this? -.-'

It's seriously amazing how some of the lecturers here teach..and i must say..pls appreciate all our lecturers back in NUS..and i mean ALL! Even the worst i came across in NUS is much better than here! crap..seriously...lecture notes sux, lecturer not even really explaining, tutorial given the week of tutorial itself, and more questions than can go through during the pathetic 1 hr (and there is only 2 tutorials one semester) of tutorial, with the stupid disclaimer in the tutorial that:

'The workshops are designed so that there are more questions than time so d o not expect to cover all of the questions in the workshop. This doe s not mean that the questions that aren't covered aren't important. Rather, you should be prepared to work on them in your own time as part of your individual learning.'

and yeah...best of all..he hasnt finish teaching all that was covered in the tutorial yet..probably going to do so tomorrow, which is a late afternoon class and my tutorial is on the next day morning...total bullshit really. Seriously pity full time students here...paying the school fees for self study..literally just paying for the certificate lol..

Alright..not all lecturers are like that though..i am just being too pissed and generalising..Zzz...

ok going back to my self study tutorial..

sometimes i wonder..

issit just me or...

sometimes i thought i know myself very well until i realised i was actually quite wrong..
and when such confidence have been broken once, just once..it's hard to be so sure again..

well..this is what happened when you have too much time and too little important stuff to do..

then again...what do you mean by important stuff? hmm...

freedom

It's really good having the freedom and when time is on ur side...

Never felt so truly relax and have all the time in the world to do the things that i enjoy doing, though not all available in this small little room of mine..but it's cozy enough..

Shall enjoy this sense of freedom and completely stress free environment to the best i can while i can! =d

To those in singapore..Gambatte!
what i can do now is only to paint ur portraits...=D

3rd week!

Officially the longest period i have stayed overseas and away from home from today onwards! Not much of a big deal though..until maybe i start to miss home? oO

I guess one thing about me i am quite certain is that i am really quite alright being on my own. In fact in some situations i would in fact prefer to be on my own. hahaha~ well, perhaps that makes joining rvnp last time quite a impt mark in my life. If not for those days that i hang around with the guys every day...i might well be a REAL loner now. I suppose it's hard, and i am not really interested in adding ppl into my comfort zone now. lolx.

But somehow i still got quite alot of frens..that's strange. haha..mayb people are jus curious why i am always antisocial and try to make fren with the 'lone' one. xD Or mayb because i dont purposely or deliberately try to socialise, that's why all the friends i have now are genuinely true friends~ =) cheers~

Suddenly remember when i was young my mum would always scold me when i throw temper and say: "you everytime throw temper next time dont have friends arh!" =S What a threat to a little kid..hahaha..but mayb that's why i have grown to be rather mild tempered ever since =D

Well..i dont really intend to change my attitude in this aspect, not because i am stubbornly anti social..haha..but simply because i seriously hate doing things for the sake of doing~ lol. networking and socialising is the best example in real life i can think of...at least for me...i dont need so many frens..really. If we are meant to be frens, we will be..somehow..haha~ xp otherwise just another acquaintance in life..dun waste time and less go maximise our own utility somewhere else. =O

Just a casual entry through my observations in a new place meeting new people and seeing how different people adapting so differently to new environment..:)

Kai Xin Jiu Hao! :) and check out my new painting of william on facebook! more fun everytime~ xD

Photoshop Painting!

This is fun! hohoho..i love learning new things~

My first photoshop self portrait! =D
(And i can dye my hair for free! xD)

DeathNote..

Re-read Deathnote yesterday until 2am..online of course..

For those who read it before..anyone's Kira fan? haha..or rather who believes in what Kira (Yagami Light) did?

I think the kind of bonding between Near (N) and Mellow (M) is really awsome.

人生在世百余岁, 难得知己心相连。

Sometimes ideas portrait in manga saves me alot of thinking and searching on my own..I guess it doesnt matter what you do..as long as you believe in it and have no regrets of the outcome? And more imptly, dont force others to follow if they have no intention to? Else will become like Light, totally 逊掉 at the end when he lost the 'fight'...blaming it on others' ignorance and attempting to rely on the deathnote and Ryuk (the shinigami).

Classic case of being 'too smart for your own good'. lolx.

So..what do i believe in?

Tatton Park...

Deer?

Whoa more deers!

Holy...

Oh my DeEr...

Self portrait!

OK I AM REALLY TOO BORED!

haha..no mood to REALLY study and since not going out at night...my boredom just builds on..

Well..anyway, at least I have time to do what I usually wouldnt do..hahaha! for the fun of it! =p

Self Portrait no.1 xD

Ok not really very nice though..hahaha! the last time i drew life portrait is like..erm..Secondary sch? or mayb JC? =S been drawing more cartoon thingy..especially during lectures! muhaha~
Ok so who wanna volunteer your photos for me to practice! xD For Free! (only at the risk of being uglified) =pP

Cheers~

At least i find more joy in doing enriching things than just playing, drinking, socialising...=pP

updates..

Have been here for 2 week already. Everything's well so far i guess. Starting to get bored of the slow pace here in fact. Only good thing is there is more time to think and ponder about stuff..not that i have anything in mind now though.
I guess..i am really living up to alot of expectations..to the extent that sometimes..i do things not really because i want to but simply because i have to..
Some questions to ponder about...

Do I really need to graduate with graduate with 1st class honors?
Do I really want to?
Must exchange be only about travelling and having fun?
What's wrong with studying during exchange?
What's wrong with not travelling alot during exchange?
Do you really have to save every penny and make life so hard?
Does it really matter what I am here for?
Why is every moment of free time so precious back in SG and so redundant now?
Why bother so much when everyone live to die?
Who really have the say for what's right and what's wrong?
If you know the Earth will be destroyed before you graduate, will you still be studying now?
What if it's 10 years later? or 100 years later? what difference will it make to your behavior now?
Are you bothered by uncertainties? But if everything is certain then there shldn't be any motivation to do anything isnt it?
Why do some people only regret when it's too late?
Why cant people think before they act?
Does following your heart definitely brings you to the 'right' path?
Is staying happy the only concern in life?
How do you measure your own utility from whatever you do?
Is it really so complex that we can only follow what other people do and assume that it's the best given law or natural selection or what not?
Can we seat down, think and come to an answer about what we should really do in our limited lifespan?
Maybe most people die before they find an answer?
So if you get to live forever? Will that change the purpose in life? Or will there be no purpose in life?
Is life precious simply because it doesn't last forever?
Should we think as an individual or for our future generations as well?
What does it really mean by live like there is no tomorrow?
Why am I so bored now?
Why is there work and readings but no mood?
Is there anything that I want to do now?

I think i am lost...for a moment..lost for a true purpose in life.
What is life really about in the long run, until we are all dead, since we are all gonna die one day?

Frisby!

Alright..actually i realise i do have time to blog.haha..cant be studying whole day? can i? lol..not during exchange i guess..hahaha! just need to make sure i understand everything that's taught and not totally waste my time here. :)

Anyway, just came back from a game of frisby..erm..at 8pm? with some (or rather quite a lot) of ppl from singapore society here. ok mayb frisby isnt really my kind of game..but apparently hard to find basketball here! xD But all that said..it still feels kinda good to run around and do some exercise! (note: no sweating was involve...sweating mechanism is not required in this atmosphere of less than 10 degrees even indoors..lol

And arh..hopefully can settle all the travelling plans soon so that i have something to look forward to while mugging during the other days! muhaha..pray that i have enough money though..xD

cheers~

OMFG

Geez..i think wouldnt have so much time to blog liao...(Jun dont think i am so free! =S)

Insane loads of readings + crappy lecturers that dont really teach + 6 modules + lacking the pre req for all of my modules (though only 3 of them seems to be really needing the pre req..shld i be glad? =x)

Oh well..I guess I should be able to cope..haha..am just abit overwhelmed coming back from Lake today with so much readings waiting for me! and most of it needed for monday (tml!) lesson! o.O

haha, anyway..videos! and some photos from town of bowness and ambleside @ Lake District!!

More available on facebook! =D

AntiSocial?

sometimes i will just say i am anti social as a convenient and direct excuse for not joining certain activities that i am not interested in..so does that make me really anti social? =O

i guess sometimes i just prefer to do things on my own..

sometimes i am really not interested...

and i dont like to 应酬 people unless there is a real need to..

plus i kinda dislike noise and crowd (i.e. clubbing..lol)

also i have my own ways of experiencing things (and not experiencing certain things like drinking)..

most importantly i think, if i keep making new friends, what will become of my good old friends! There is only so much time you have, how many real friendship can you maintain? And rather than feeling sad for not keeping in touch in future, might as well dont bother to build it in the first place.

Hahaha..another of my screwed theory. Of course i know the flip side like all the benefits and reasons for making as many friends, even if it is just aquaintance, as possible. But i am just a stubborn kid with my own beliefs..=p

and i am really happier doing things on my own! Less trouble, more convenient. keke. so i guess there is nth wrong! mUHAHA..

lalala..

A thought a day..

It's amazing how too much free time can change a person..even one like me...
Had been reading novels that I NEVER really do back in Singapore..and now i am actually reading StraitsTimes Online! =O

I sense i will need a pair of mugger specs soon..xD

Anyway, came across this article titled "Give temporary aid to jobless". Seriously, should we? hmm..i guess governing a nation is really not easy, and i can probably understand why the government do some of the things they do which may seem unreasonable to others. Not that I am really pro government (though i shld be..xD). Anyway shall not talk too specifically, just sharing my broad view of this idea of 'unemployment benefits' (yea economics~=p)

I guess the most difficult part of all kinds of benefits is the risk of it being abuse. And i certainly do not think it's fair when some people start to abuse these benefits while others are working hard to pay tax and feed these abusers...supposedly the government also face this dilemma, of how to put the tax payers' money into good use that maximise benefits for all.

Well i guess putting a $ or duration cap to these benefits is the most obvious way, stating clearly how long these benefits will last and if beyond that you still cant find a job then sorry, the gov cant feed you forever. Geez that sounds kinda harsh but it's the harsh reality~ Then the problem will be how long then, shld be a reasonable length of these benefits? And further, it is kind of impossible to achieve full employment in a society given certain amount of natural rate due to structural/frictional unemployment. So what will happen to these people who perpectually cant seem to find a job even if they are trying? And how to ensure that they are REALLY trying? hmm..

Then there are also things like training allowance, that's suppose to alleviate some of these unemployment due to skills mismatch. It's defintely good to learn something new, but how much does it help anyway if the industry isnt demanding extra labor at all? Perhaps the effect will come in later, when the economy recovers, but meanwhile can these people survive on skills upgrading courses? Don't really know the exact specifics (think there is $600 training allowance or something) so shall just leave it as a ??.

hMm..I suppose the best that can be done is to pray that the economy recovers soon! Not being negative or what, but i guess it's not possible to be helping every single unemployed person in the long run, while trying to maintain the same standard of living. Either EVERYONE compromise on a lower standard of living and share the love with people who aint earning...or let those poorer guys starve. hmm..sounds like communism..haha..is that fair? in both way? i guess that's why governing is hard...because different people expect different treatment and different degree/form of equality.

Alright starting to get lost in my own words..need better organisation of tots if it had been an essay to be graded..hahaha! but it's just blogging random tots =p

Angels & Demons

by Dan Brown

The second book I finished reading in my life! From the first page all the way to the last! Cheers~

Ok it's not any new book and some of you might have already read it. But just a simple summary for those who didn't!

It is basically a story about the conflict between science and religion. The entire story in the book happened within 1 day, with the canister of antimatter (ask jh abt it..) was stolen from CERN and a series of actions to retrieve it within 24hrs before it 'explodes'. Riddles and more riddles by the ancient secret brotherhood illuminati, supposedly made up of brightest scientists/archis all over the world, was being uncovered in the quest of finding the antimatter canister that was hidden somewhere in Vatican..


I LOVE the book! Not many book can keep me reading beyond the first 10 pages but this one definitely did, with all the twist and suspence factors that makes you want to read on! That's why I dont want to narrate too much in the summary so that those who have not read this book before can go and pick up a copy! Definitely worth the time reading, and considering it from someone who don't really enjoy reading, it has to be damn good! :D

The suspence is amazing, and the twist is godly! In fact, this book somehow really manage to integrate Science and Religion in a way I did not think of before. As a typical freethinker like me, most kind of religion around did really interest me a single bit. But the book manage to put it is such a logical way that somehow it makes abit more sense! Perhaps is the unbias attitude and style of writing that makes religion suddenly more acceptable to me.

From my own point of view..
It doesnt matter whether you are a catholic, buddhist, taoist of whatsoever, religion is simply about a firm belief. Though it doesnt mean that when u belief strongly in something that thing will definitely come true, the belief indeed gives mental strength and confidence to move on against the tides. Drawing from the book (but not direct quote cos i cant find the exact paragraph xD), 'as you pray, meditate or focus on something real hard and believe in it, the mind will suddenly clear as your usually inactive part of the brain gets activated momentarily...this is when you see light in religious term, something that you actually knew but din realise before..'

I am still a more scientific person, but i dont really reject any religion. Still consider myself as a freethinker simply because there isnt anything that i can really firmly believe in as of now, maybe except in my 'beyondalltalents - genius of hardwork' theory. haha..can refer to the 1st and 2nd entries in this blog if you have no idea what is it about~ but it's quite self explanatory anyway =)

The joy of reading..i suddenly feel it..how true reading can really widen your horizon and expose you to things you never thought of before. These are really the kind of books I like to read..books that you really can learn something from..some comics have this effect too! =p
Cheers~

First day of school!

Alright! I guess there is no need to print notes for lectures anymore! muhaha..self study sounds reasonably good to me, the perfect way of education! =p

Here's the real deal! Heavy Snow Realtime Footage!!
(Thanks and sorry to JH's camera for weathering the snow with me =Pp)

Yeah trip for this weekend!

Sat - Barclays Premier League MCFC v Middlebrough
Sun - Lake district visiting Aira Force waterfall and Ambleside

Cheers~

SNOW!

SNOW! REAL SNOW!
(first time in my life! haha)

Right, realtime snowing, taken from inside the library. Not very heavy though...but IT'S REAL SNOW! Haha.

Oh well, printing is expensive here..5pences per page..which is like more than 10 cents per page! OMG...can I survive without printing notes? hmm...let's decide after attending first few lessons tml! =p

And ya..manchester coin system below..still have a hard time trying to figure them out because
they dont really follow any size or pattern order..xD

(From 1 pound on the left to 1 penny (0.01pound) on the right!)