updates..

Have been here for 2 week already. Everything's well so far i guess. Starting to get bored of the slow pace here in fact. Only good thing is there is more time to think and ponder about stuff..not that i have anything in mind now though.
I guess..i am really living up to alot of expectations..to the extent that sometimes..i do things not really because i want to but simply because i have to..
Some questions to ponder about...

Do I really need to graduate with graduate with 1st class honors?
Do I really want to?
Must exchange be only about travelling and having fun?
What's wrong with studying during exchange?
What's wrong with not travelling alot during exchange?
Do you really have to save every penny and make life so hard?
Does it really matter what I am here for?
Why is every moment of free time so precious back in SG and so redundant now?
Why bother so much when everyone live to die?
Who really have the say for what's right and what's wrong?
If you know the Earth will be destroyed before you graduate, will you still be studying now?
What if it's 10 years later? or 100 years later? what difference will it make to your behavior now?
Are you bothered by uncertainties? But if everything is certain then there shldn't be any motivation to do anything isnt it?
Why do some people only regret when it's too late?
Why cant people think before they act?
Does following your heart definitely brings you to the 'right' path?
Is staying happy the only concern in life?
How do you measure your own utility from whatever you do?
Is it really so complex that we can only follow what other people do and assume that it's the best given law or natural selection or what not?
Can we seat down, think and come to an answer about what we should really do in our limited lifespan?
Maybe most people die before they find an answer?
So if you get to live forever? Will that change the purpose in life? Or will there be no purpose in life?
Is life precious simply because it doesn't last forever?
Should we think as an individual or for our future generations as well?
What does it really mean by live like there is no tomorrow?
Why am I so bored now?
Why is there work and readings but no mood?
Is there anything that I want to do now?

I think i am lost...for a moment..lost for a true purpose in life.
What is life really about in the long run, until we are all dead, since we are all gonna die one day?