home feels the same as ever!

Wah! been too busy since i came back from manchester that i almost forgot i got a blog! =O

16 June - 6pm, finally touched down on changi airport after a gruelling 13 hours flight! not forgetting my first ever experience of faulty plane u-turning back to manchester airport, missing the transfer flight at london and got refunded new tickets to fly back from paris! all within the 20 hrs before i am finally back!

17 June - my first L4D session with the guys + ml and bc. quite interesting. followed by jux camp briefing in school

18 June - 21 June - Juxtapose camp 09!! Best camp i had so far! While the group is as good as last yr's the program is definitely much better (partly becos i missed part of last yr's camp as it overlapped with cac camp)~ =)

22 June - The long awaited mahjong session. Thanks for coming my house and win $9.90 from me. ck,sk and des...Went to just ed and watched jh rehearse his wu jian dao at nite.

23 June - Went to Changi Village broad walk and recce for residents outing with Rank and Apple. Hope we will be able to go back for sessions soon. :(

24 June - the competition..jh got second. $30. not bad. =D first time drive other people's car oso, piccanto. small. party world..cui-ed..cant sing. =0

25 June - rendered extra at Singaproe Kindness Movement (SKM) AGM. became member of SKM. Free refreshments. thanks to jun. watched drag me to hell. lame show. lame storyline. lame ending. =O

26 June - ???

lol. Feels so different and so at home. back to my busy life but i am loving it. haha. nv need to worry about having nth to do =D

cheers~

Last Night at Manchester

Hmm..finally, the day has come, to leave this place that brought me lots of new experiences in this 4 months. cant say for sure if i would miss this place, but right now i just cant wait to go back singapore~ cheers~

While packing, i realise i did quite a lot of things down here that i wouldnt have done if i were in singapore. maybe i am kinda antisocial here, but i really loved the free time that i had to myself, to play around with photoshop, draw, sketch and even created like 30 pages of my own manga. haha. how interesting.

Going back to my familiar ground tml, familiar faces, home. this 4 months might well be the slackest/free-est 4 months in my life. but i am not missing it. i appreciate this 4 mths, for it brought more meaning to the life that i used to lead.

I dont mind having time for myself now and then, but i think i still prefer to hang out with my close frenz, even if it's dota-ing every day. =>

life is not just about urself.
your meaning in life depends on how much you mean to people around you.

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speak up or shut up?

how do people differentiate between destruptive criticism and contructive comments?

sometimes reading news..or rather public's comments on news can be quite irritating. i wonder if it's just me or it's the nature that things are. people who are kb cant shut up..while the opposite dont speak up. maybe...just maybe..people who speak before they think tend to give extreme comments..while those that think before they speak realises that there is no point arguing with them. lolx.

i suppose it's also a skill to give comments. sometimes i just feel that there is no point screaming out the truth even if you are right, less others are willing to take it in. otherwise, those words will just become meaningless criticism that stir conflicts.

words are amazing thing that human creates. it can motivate, can inspire, can be use to communicate and can also to record. but it can also easily create conflict, can hurt people, or even kill...

if you think it matters, then choose your words wisely. otherwise, shut up. lolx.

Living around..

Literally just 'living' around these few days. Dota now and then, read manga, eat, sleep. Not studying. Is this so called 'life'? I wonder. Sometimes you just yield for such 'relaxing' period, but when you get too much of it it becomes meaningless. Is this why people just can't stop moving forward?

Been thinking all along, what really does appreciating something means. I thought i should try to appreciate what i have and don't complain so much, yet there are always times when you just get sick of things, like now, getting sick of all these 'meaningless' days. And when they are gone, you will look back and think 'if only...'. Sighx..mayb humans are just greedy creatures, no wonder greed is one of the 7 sins in man. You just want a taste of everything..abit here abit there, more of everything, and when u have enuff of one thing u want something else again. =s

I use to see it as a form of balance, that too much of anything is no good. But then again sometimes i just feel like indulging myself in extremes as well. Like try to do your very best and see what's the best grades you can get, slack till you cant slack anymore and see how much motivation you can build up when things are burning your ass...or even join/help in so many things that you are too busy to think of anything else..

Maybe we are just FJ. lolx.

Seems to me that there is really no 'real' meaning in life. You can interpret in whatever way you like, coz we can think, we have emotions, so surviving along is not enough to satisfy us, unlike other living things.

I wonder when i can find my own meaning in life. hmm..

Everyone dies eventually. Life is a matter of what you do while you live.