tidak boleh tidur...

cant sleep..got 2 midterms later..
sometimes it's really hard to let go..
the more you achieve, the harder it is..

and as the saying goes, god is fair..
no matter how well off anyone seem to be doing, everyone has their own troubles..something that no one else can understand..

if there is a perfect person..
i would say he/she is someone that is genuinely trouble free and happy..
the closest to this ideal, is perhaps Yon (叶) in shaman king. haha.

And as i am telling js...if i really get 6A+ it would really be no life..lolx..but think again, not as if i am doing anything else more meaningful whilst i am not studying..*like trying to conquer china in sango11..=/

sometimes i really hope i can get a wake up call from somewhere...sometimes i dont really like this half awake state of mine. maybe doing things half heartedly just isnt my style..

when you slack enough and you look back..sometimes you feel like you wasted alot of time back then..
when you mug too much and you look back..sometimes you feel like you have no life..
when you volunteer too much and you look back..sometimes you feel like you need some time for yourself..

and when you have too much free time and you look around..you feel like you rather have something to do..

so then...what should we do?

stop thinking and go to bed...=/

Perfection or not..

If perfection really exists, must we strive for it?

Sometimes always striving for perfection is quite difficult also.

Whilst striving for perfection our sight become narrower.

This is not perfection.

茫茫人生

人生愿逢知己好友，别无所求。

人生中究竟还缺少了什么呢？

原动力该从何而发呢？

对自己的要求是否也是一种奢求？

我在茫茫人生中依然寻找着我要走的路。。。

update...

so far..so busy..haha.
busy living up to my own expectations.
sometimes, my life can be so much simpler if i just decide to live with it.

anyway, it's a cycle. ups and downs, motivated and unmotivated, better do things when you feel like doing thme before the motivation is gone. there's really nth to lose since time flies on its own even if you dont do anything, so might as well do something.

budden, although i am capable of doing many things alone..there are just some things that you can achieve on your own. maybe u can influence..but it's really not that easy. and it's really not in my character to do so. haha.

just do the best i can on my own bah. sometimes working hard silently alone is quite a refreshing feeling too.

一个人默默耕耘其实也不错。

finding peace within myself..(though lecturers can get irritating with last minute assignments and unclear instructions and expectations..lol.)