The same old feeling...

Hmm...seems like i haven really grown up much since before i went for exchange.

Getting the same old feeling of sian-ness after certain amount of work and 'self-irritation' when things doesnt go smoothly.

Perhaps it's really the situation that shapes one's feelings and emotions. It's a familiar feeling, and i cant seem to get rid of it completely no matter how much i dont like it. I know it will come and go, but is it really impossible for it not to come at all? hmm...

Work-life balance..there seem to be a missing element still. I did work, i did play, so what's lacking that still makes me feel so empty at times..=x

I wonder..maybe i really just need a simpler life without so much involvement. Sometimes the more you do, the more you feel it could have been done without you. Back in manchester i was really almost free of any sort of involvements/commitments..while i feel bored at times, at least i am really free of worries. Life was utterly simple. eat, sleep, dota. lolx. meaningless survival, but at least i am living in peace.

Not complaining or anything. just thinking. the same question as always. what do i really want in my life. i can achieve a lot of things, but do i really want to? am i missing out some other impt things while doing what i am doing now? hmm...a tough question as usual. maybe i should live a period free of commitments in singapore and see if that's what i want. since back in manchester i cant do much even with the abundance free time. here at least i might be able to find more meaning for myself if i free up some time and energy.

hmm...