ultimately in life...

i want to be able to do as i wish without needing the help of anyone.

right now i am happy with what i am doing...just that sometimes asking people to help can be quite difficult.

dont like the feeling of 'i owe you something' because you are helping. dont like to 'force' ppl to do things. hate it when it seems like it is my responsibility to do certain things. hate it when i am taken for granted just because i am always taking the initiative.

shall try to involve myself less in doing things that need people to help. then i will never need to expect anything from anyone.

towards complete independence! woosh!